beauty sleep

beauty sleep
is all about utilizing your resources...
even though i'm not sleeping as much as i'd like,
i've never felt more beautiful than i do with her in my arms,
and brennan at my feet.
i love my wrinkles.
the ones that my children are leaving behind.
little pieces of them on my face.
happy.
healthy.
no money,
but still wealthy.

i think she has my eyes.

lies no more

me around 2 years old

i used to be a liar. as a kid i would lie to not get in trouble. as a teenager i would lie to get away with things (sorry p-rents). as a young adult i would lie to avoid hurting someone else or to manipulate a situation to my benefit. it was exhausting! i am POSITIVE that everyone has told a lie at one time or another.

two years ago i made my new year's resolution to "be honest." i wasn't telling the big whoppers anymore, but i found myself using little white lies without even realizing i was doing it. i have found that i disappoint people more often and have made certain family members distant, but i really enjoy not having to worry about what i say and do. i always know that my integrity is strong. now, i am not saying that i have not made errors in judgment or assumptions b/c the good guy above surely knows the answer to that question. i am thinking of a recent situation where i assumed something would not be a big deal and didn't think to mention it. well, apparently it was a big deal. i'm still working on perfection, aren't you? i don't mean that in an "i want to be perfect way." perfection is a funny idea isn't it? give it up, if you haven't already! life is so much better without it:-) and without the lying too.