"experience is what you get when you didn't get what you wanted." -randy pausch
Thursday, April 21, 2016
I almost didn't try plexus bc of this little bag right here.
The name, the girl measuring herself,
and the strip about weight loss across the top.
It killed me 😳🔫.
SCAM! And "just another fad" is what went through my head.
What some of you don't know is that in college I struggled with an unhealthy relationship with food. It went on for about two years on and off and bc it was on and off,
I kept it pretty well hidden. Im sure people had their suspicions who knew me really well.
I have so much love for that girl I used to be. I wish I could go back and hug her.
I was so unhappy with myself, and the only thing I could control was what I looked like.
It gave me a high. Almost like a drug. I felt like if I looked a certain way, I would be happy. Thank goodness, through my lord and savior, many wonderful friends and family,
and my amazing husband, I was able to heal and change my thinking patterns over a ten year period. It was a lot of work and a constant conscious effort, but I did it.
That being said, I still had triggers. Exercise, overeating, and "diets"
had to be a thing of the past bc they were triggers.
I never wanted to go back to thinking those thoughts again,
and so I put controls (this seems to be a common theme with me😂😭🙈)
on myself to make sure I avoided anything that would trigger. I didn't trust myself.
So a product that was marketed for weight loss and called Slim scared the CRAP 💩😰 out of me, especially bc I don't put pressure on myself to lose weight or look a certain way anymore. I am so proud of how far I've come.
But, I was desperate for help with my milk supply,
and Brooke wouldn't shut up about how great she felt,
so I just did it.
I have had so many blessings that have come from plexus,
but one that I realized today is that for the first time in over ten years,
my triggers are not there anymore.
I trust myself.
My body doesn't want me to soothe it with food,
it doesn't want me to overeat,
it craves exercise bc I have more energy,
and when I'm hungry I naturally reach for healthy foods bc that's what sounds good.
I'm so grateful that I am fully free, and I now love this little pink drink
named Slim that's about so much more than weight loss.