"experience is what you get when you didn't get what you wanted." -randy pausch

Monday, August 15, 2016

sandwich haters unite {good things utah}

you'll find me on Good Things Utah this morning!
any sandwich haters in your house?
yeah, me too;)
sharing my ideas on how to keep the kiddos happy,
and not lose your mind in the process.
9-10am Mountain on ABC4
#adventuresinhomelunch


Sunday, August 14, 2016

Saturday, August 13, 2016

climber


and then
OUT
OF
NOWHERE
the 14 month old climbs up onto the couch
and steals the popsicle out of your mouth.
we have a climber folks.
send reinforcements.

Friday, August 12, 2016

keep calm, and may the odds be ever you in your favor {school's around the corner--stay strong guys}

we've officially hit the point in summer 
where we are all just ready to be back in school.
late nights are old.
except when they're not.
you get to this place, and you wonder 
how did i ever want school to be out?
you wonder if you're just being negative,
and then you see a mom at costco with 4 kids.
2 of them are going for blood,
the baby is asleep in the cart covered in pizza sauce,
and the 4th is doing the potty dance,
and you just give each other the
"keep calm, and may the odds be ever your favor"
look.
you KNOW the look.
no hand signals necessary.
it's times like these where you don't care one bit about enjoying the last days of summer.
you just want school to start.
carpools, and crazy mornings, and not homework at all.
ain't nobody that misses homework.
but then the next day,
everyone sleeps in until 9am,
you make little pita pocket pizzas for lunch,
{maybe there's no vegetable, but darn it, it was hand made, 
and you didn't even make the kids microwave it themselves 
bc you were feeling so generous right then and there}.
you read books at the lunch table,
and go for a walk,
and the thought of carpools and early mornings just seems like nothing you'd ever
want to actually do, and you can't believe you were wishing for that just the day before.
and that's when it hits you.
just when you can't handle the flow, the ebb comes in and makes it alllllll ok.
also hormones.
it's possible hormones might be involved in all of this.
either way,
when you get to this point in summer,
ain't nobody cares about 4 servings of veggies a day;)
that's for sure.

Monday, July 11, 2016

only two dimples left on his hands guys.

my favorite summer nights lately,
are when sean and i get the little boys bathed and in bed.
i sing to chase.
he likes baby beluga the best.
and he always falls asleep with the light on before i even walk out of the room.
i walk by sean sitting with maxine on her bed.
sometimes she's being sweet.
other times she's freaking out and i can tell sean has had it.
those are the times when we locked wide eyes 
and i give him the "stay strong brotha! you've got this" look.
and then i walk down the stairs into the big room,
and brennan has a book on the recliner,
with one of the big cozy blankets.
you know the ones costco has every year?
and they go on sale like right when it's starting to snow outside.
i've bought one every year for the last 5 years.
we have lots of colors.
the grey one is the newest, so that's the one the kid fight over the most.
i've got my eye on purple next year folks.
it doesn't match a thing in my house, but i just love how bright it is.
so anyway,
brennan reads to himself, while i go through email and messages,
and then he curls up and falls asleep.
and it's the little routine that i love.
this older kid routine.
where they can hang out with you bc they're older.
and they're not so little.
and i love it.
only two dimples left on his hands guys.
we're on borrowed time.
#thegoodolddaysrightnow

i finally wrote about being a working mom.

When I used to hear working moms talk about the judgment they felt, 
the criticism they received for it, and the guilt they felt, I remember thinking that was SOOO the 80's ‪#‎soapbox‬ of the past. This is the 21st century for crying out loud. We must be past all of that right? And yet, here I am, finding myself as a working ‪#‎sahm‬ feeling the judgment from others, the guilt of being a working mom (sometimes it's suffocating), and criticism for the outlet which my passion has led me to. And it's real. It's so undeniably real. How can this be? How can a woman, who's helping to provide for her family, while caring for her children, be criticized and judged for the same thing that society is so accepting of in a father? God bless Sean for always seeing me as an equal in all things, whether I was working or not. He has and always will be my number one supporter. Can a woman not have passion as a mother and have a professional vocation? Does it make her less of a mother if she does? Does it make her pursuits greedy if she is successful? Boastful? What if her pursuit is network marketing over a more traditional job? Does that make her selfish? Less worthy of success? What about negligent, or out of balance? Does it imply that she is putting her marriage and family second if she pursues both? After 8 months of learning to harmonize and balance being a mother AND a working mom, I have learned that nothing is black and white, you can't have it all, AND that things aren't always how they appear. As a society, I can see that we can do better. As women, let us embrace each other, regardless of the path we take. I have done a lot of reckoning with the woman I was before all of this, and I'm grateful for the experiences God has brought into my life to see another side. It has given me more empathy for others than anything I've ever experienced in my life. When we as a human race learn to truly LOVE one another, we will STOP criticizing each other, and BEGIN embracing each other for the bravery it takes to pursue what we truly believe in WITHOUT judgement...and that's when we will have become progressive. 
This is my prayer. Amen. 

Thursday, June 30, 2016

Mama Einstein;)

When I met Julie Clark (creator of Baby Einstein) two weeks ago, 
she taught me four things: 
1. Make your own luck 
2. Make a positive difference 
3. Choose hope always 
4. Make an impact. 
There are moments where you KNOW what you're doing 
is changing something bigger than you. 
This was one of those days, and I'm grateful I was there to receive it.
4 months after I had Dean, I wasn't sitting around in my sweatpants crying all day, 
so at first i didn't make the connection to the silent symptoms of postpartum and anxiety I was having.
Instead, i was always anxious, doing really OCD things like washing my hands ALL the time, having clothes folded in a certain way, and needing my house to be organized. 
My postpartum was late onset, so there was no one there to recognize it other than me, 
and it just left me feeling like I didn't have this motherhood thing figured out after all. 
It made me feel like I was not good enough, even though I knew I was. 
It's the strangest thing to know you're being irrational, but not have control over it. 
And still feeling like you're happy, but something is just still wrong.
And you just resign to the realization that maybe this is just what it's going to be like for the next 20 years until your kids go to college.
And it wasn't like everything was awful.
My baby made me REALLY happy. My kids and husband made me REALLY happy.
Which is why i was even more confused by it.
 There is a bill in the House of Representatives right now called H.R. 3235: Bringing Postpartum Depression Out of the Shadows Act of 2015. It has been designed to give states more funding to provide additional screening for mothers, and help them have resources to get help. I want to get rid of the stigma of what we "think" postpartum is supposed to look like, and the shame that comes with postpartum depression in general. Email, call, and FB message your congressman and let them know that their constituents see a need. There are people in Washington right now that can make this happen, and if we can flood their messages all at once, we will make a difference!
You can tune into to Good Things Utah Tuesday July 5th at 9am Mountain time to hear me speak about my experience with postpartum depression and anxiety.
See ya'll there!

Tuesday, May 31, 2016

PIZZA! PIZZA! {good things utah}




if you're tuning in today because you saw us today on 
Good Things Utah,
HELLO!
HOWDY!
GUTEN TAG!
...
INGREDIENTS:
2tbls yeast
2 cups warm water
1tbls sugar
5 cups flour
3tbls canola oil
2tbls salt
1tbls dried oregano *
1tbls dried basil *
{*optional}

DIRECTIONS:
1. warm water, sugar, and yeast in bowl--let sit until yeast rises on top of water {10-15 min.}.
2. flour, canola oil, salt and other spices in bowl.
3. poor water/sugar/yeast mixture into canola oil and dry ingredient bowl--mix with kitchen aid and dough hook for 5 min. or knead on counter until it feels elastic. i add a little bit of warm water if it's too dry or a little bit of flour if it's too moist to get it just right. it's different every time! 

 


4. let rise, covered for 1 hour {i like to put it in my microwave with a kitchen towel over the top.}
5roll out your dough, and put it on your pam sprayed air back pan {go buy one, it's worth it},
6. then stuff your crust
7. butter and garlic your crust
8.  THEN BEFORE you put your sauce, cheese, and toppings on, BAKE YOUR CRUST FOR 10-13 MINUTES at 435*, until it knocks hard in the center.

9. take out of oven, add sauce, cheese and toppings,and put back in oven for another 5-6 minutes until the cheese and crust start to brown. Sometimes i have to put it on low broil for the last 5 minutes of this to get it to brown on the top.
This is the secret to having a pizza parlor crust: BAKE BEFORE YOU ADD YOUR SAUCE, CHEESE, & TOPPINGS.
Makes 2 full sized pizzas.
OR you can put half of your mixed dough into a ziploc pam sprayed bag {before it rises in the very begging, right after you mix it} and freeze it. Next time you need dough, you can put it out on your counter midday and let it thaw and rise for homemade pizza dough without all of the work.

you can follow me on... 

facebook at: Emily Ryan Gibson
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and maybe one day on snapchat, 
but somebody had better get to bullying me into it.
the flower head piece ALMOST lured me in.
but until then,
i'll be here old schoolin' it on ma' BLOG.
some things never change.

Monday, May 30, 2016

healing the wounds

There's something about being in the dirt 

that heals all wounds, 

strengthens all that's weak, and nourishes 

all that's been lacking. 

Sending love and prayers out today 

to the people that need it most. 

Rest in peace sweet Maureen. This raspberry start is for you.

Saturday, May 14, 2016

don't pay no mind to the demons, they fill you with fear.

6 months ago I was the mom whose kids had to drag her out of bed in the morning, 

was cranky for a good three hours after that, perked up around lunch bc carbs made me the happiest 😂😭, and then gave my kids screens from 1-3pm EVERY DAY with direct instructions to not talk to me or bother me bc this was my time to watch Netflix, eat Nutella and whipped cream (or Reese's pb cups) and/or nap, which would only make me MORE tired, but I had to have it to make it through the day anyway. I was always having to roll down the windows to my car during carpool, even with 6 screaming kids in the back, bc I would be falling asleep at the wheel at 3:30pm (after my nap mind you). Then I would get my kids to bed at 8pm ON.THE.DOT. bc I need a minimum of 3 hours of wind down time to eat Choc pb ice cream to soothe my anxiousness and zone out to endless shows on my DVR. My hair was falling out, my skin was peeling on my hands (no matter what lotion I used), I went to bed at 9pm bc I felt like I was 93yrs old, and I had accepted this as normal and what having littles had to be like. It was my badge of honor in fact! This is not normal, and I don't accept it anymore...I didn't know how bad I felt until I felt good.

"Don't pay no mind to the demons, they fill you with fear. 

The trouble it might drag you down, if you get lost you can always be found." 

#found 

if you're struggling like i was, you can try what worked for me at:
www.whathealthyfeelslike.com
i used the triplex combo {slim, probio5, biocleanse} and xfactor multivitamin.