"experience is what you get when you didn't get what you wanted." -randy pausch

Wednesday, December 7, 2016

just to make sure they're juuuuuuuuuust right.

I can remember when I was pregnant with Dean,
day dreaming about what he would look like,
smell like,
if he would cry a lot,
eat well,
sleep?
Two of my babies had been horrible nursers.
One had been good.
She slept too.
God bless Maxine.
I was ready for hard,
but what Dean gave me was bliss.
His little noises he would make.
The smell of his head.
And the little fur all over his back and shoulders.
I loved to nurse him in just a diaper,
so I could pet his furry little body while he ate.
Even after four babies, 
I can vividly remember the first time my milk came in with Dean,
thinking how amazing it was that my body created life,
and then sustained it.
And I was just so proud of this amazing process 
that had been hard for me so many times before.
Everything that had ever bothered me about my body as a teenager 
was liberated in motherhood haha.
I forgive you imperfect self because dang it,
succeeding at 9lb baby child birthing 
{3 of my 4 babes were OVER 9 pounds. YEP} 
made up for it all!
I prided myself in breastfeeding.
Almost like a badge of honor.
So when my milk started drying up when Dean was 4 months old,
I was devastated.
I remember sobbing to my beloved lactation counsellor.
She was so warm and encouraging.
And I thought long and hard about why I was so upset.
You can read about it here.
I knew formula was really good.
I knew I was good enough either way,
and I knew that it would open so many beautiful moments to bottle feed for my three other children, husband, and family and friends all around.
It taught me a great lesson about life, 
and how it cannot always look the way we want it to look.
Control freaks unite ;)
Can I get an amen?!
Everyone say YES!
Looking back I can see that in my fog of frustration,
it wasn't that quitting nursing was about anything I thought I THOUGHT it was about.
It was that closeness, those memories,
those smells.
OHHHH I can almost smell him right now.
That was what I was hanging onto.
That time where it was just us.
In the nursery on the glider.
With the sun coming into the room,
making the pale yellow walls all aglow.
And no one else could step in for me.
It was just the two of us.
Through thick and through thin.
Reflux and all.
It couldn't be handed off.
And it forced time to slow down.
There's something amazing about being able to hideaway, 
and steal your baby from everyone else. 
From the hustle and the bustle of everything around you.
Like an excuse to taste the sweet potatoes on Thanksgiving 
just to make sure they're juuuuuuust right.
And I think I knew deep inside of myself that if nursing was really over,
I wouldn't be strong enough to make that time sacred with just us anymore.
I would let everyone else do it.
And not that it was a bad thing to do that,
just a different thing.
A thing I wasn't ready for yet.
In the good kind of selfish way.
Maybe that was me putting my worth in the pride of it all,
or maybe not.
Maybe it doesn't even matter.
But deep inside of my core,
I know it was more than that.
Because even now, having weaned my sweet baby Dean 6 months ago, 
when I pick him up,
and he leans into my neck with his face buried in my hair,
for those few minutes it takes me back.
Not to the WAY I fed him,
but to the way we felt when I fed him.
And whatever avenue that gets you to that.
THAT is truly the miracle of motherhood.

*you can also find this post at The Honest Company !

Saturday, December 3, 2016

even if my kids are crazy and out of control.

Eyes open πŸ‘€, eyes closed πŸ˜‘, and chase ray in rare form in every single shot πŸ˜‚πŸ˜­πŸŽ„πŸŽ…πŸ». I like the pictures where things are out of place. They make me feel like we look more normal😜. I feel like I've reached a point in the#slowcooker phase of #motherhoodwhere I have no clue what I'm doing.#Babies πŸ‘ΆπŸ», I get them πŸ™ŒπŸ». #Toddlers, yes please! And #Preschool makes my heart ❤️ skip a beat! But this big kid stuff, welp, sometimes I just feel like I'm one of those people on #americaninjawarrior πŸ‡ΊπŸ‡ΈπŸ™…πŸΌ trying to cross an ocean 🌊 while walking on a spinning log πŸ™ˆ. Did you get the visual on that one πŸ˜‚πŸ˜­⁉️ Me too πŸ˜‚πŸ’πŸΌ. I#believe ✨ that the adversary πŸ‘Ήwants us to think that we aren't capable. I believe that he wants us to buy into the FALSE idea that the challenges in our lives are beyond our reach, and that we cannot do this...but I know that he is the master of pessimism, and the creator of all lies. I know that i have light ✨πŸ’‘ at my fingertips to help me achieve all things. I know that I have everything I need to master these challenges πŸ™ŒπŸ»πŸ’•. I know that the greatest distance between a problem and a solution is the distance between my knees and the floor. I'm#grateful to have this knowledge, and I'm#thankful the lord has always and will always bless me through the power of#prayer πŸ™πŸ». Amen #throughHIM#allthingsarepossible πŸ’• 

even if my kids are crazy and out of control.


Friday, December 2, 2016

tooooooooooe piiiiiiiiiick!

Tooooooeeeeeeee Piiiiiiiiiiick!!!

Tonight was magical ✨πŸŽ„⛸❄️‼️ My mister and I twirled ⛸ around this rink with the #Christmas πŸŽ„πŸŽ…πŸ» lights all aglow. One song after another, we belted our hearts out 🎀 with a hundred other skaters ⛸ like Christmas Cheer you've never seen before. 

Also we ran into our cute neighbor Sage.❤️❄️ it's a small world after all πŸ˜‚‼️

All iwant for christmas and White Christmas ❄️πŸŽ„ were my personal favorites πŸ’πŸΌπŸŽ€, and I still can't wipe the smile off of my face. Sean warmed up my fingers holding hands round and round, and we didn't even fall πŸ˜‚πŸ‘πŸ»πŸ˜œ. Then we met up with friends for sushi πŸ£πŸ₯ and laughed our faces off all night long πŸ˜‚πŸ˜­. I love this life, and the this December πŸŽ„πŸŽ…πŸ» birthday πŸŽπŸŽ‰ of mine #34 .



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Thursday, December 1, 2016

Good Morning America!

If you're tuning in from 
Good Morning America, 
WELCOME! 
So glad you are here, 
and thanks for stopping by!
...
Grandma Max’s 
Gingerbread Men
1 egg
2 1/2 cups flour
1/2 c butter, melted
1/2 c molasses
1/2 c sugar
1/2 c milk
1/2 tsp cinnamon
1/2 tsp nutmeg
1/8tps ginger

Preheat oven to 400*. 
Mix egg, sugar, molasses, butter, and milk. 
Sift together dry ingredients and add to sugar mixture while mixing. 
Sometimes I have to add more or less flour, depending on the weather.
You want it to be like Play-doh.
Roll out dough and cut into desired shapes. 
Put cut out Gingerbread Men into your FREEZER for 5 min
{so they hold their cute little shape when they cook},
and then...
Bake for 8 min., cool, and decorate!
I like to buy the tubes of frosting
from the grocery store to make things simple,
and I LOOOOVE to just let my kids at it 
all by themselves.
These little cutie pies were the perfect afternoon snack,
and my Gibbies gobbled them up the minute they walked through the door.
Got milk?
NOTE: 
There is an adorable 
children's book called 
"The Gingerbread Pirates" 
by Kristin Kladstrup that we read all Christmas season long. It's especially fun to whip out the night we've made 
Grandma Max's Gingerbread Men. 
Cheers!

Wednesday, November 30, 2016

how it took 5 hours to make a 26 second clip.

That one time when I called Bree 
and yelled 
"THE PRODUCERS at 
GOOD MORNING AMERICA just called me,
 and said I'm going to be ON THE SHOW tomorrow!!!!! 
Can you come over right now and help me make gingerbread cookies?!"
true story.
i
kid
you
not.
 So she dropped EVERYTHING to pick up tube icing and Christmas sprinkles 
(thank you Teresa for your 1 cup of Molasses!!! and Julie for your rolling pin bc mine is still at Good Things Utah AND your gingerbread man cookie cutter. 
{Was that a runon sentence? I'm not sure if my brain is still here right now???} 
Then we masterminded a 2 min recorded clip that ended up being a miscommunication of time length, which we didn't know until after I had left for carpool and let chase eatπŸ˜› TTWO of the cookies 
AT WHICH POINT 
the ever great Millie {my 15 yr old babysitter} enters the story, 
who sat on my counter and told me what to do with my handsπŸ€— and eyes, 
while we bribed Max and Teagan with more cookiesπŸ˜‚
 to keep Dean downstairs with them 
so we could do 16 more takes to get the clip down to the 26 allotted seconds. 
HOLY COW
it might have been one of my most fun days of my entire liiiiiiiiife, 
and I can't wait to see my BLINK of a 26 second clip on the real
LIVE
GOOD MORNING AMERICA
☕️IN in the 
BIG APPLE 
of NYC 
bright and early 
TOMORROW MORNING!!! 
So set your DVR folks, and don't blink or you might miss it.
I'll be on there with my signature "E" apron, 
and now you know the story of how it took 5 hours to film a 26 second clipπŸ’πŸΌ
You can find my recipe on the GMA website. How BOUT THEM apples?!🍎

Tuesday, November 29, 2016

love notes

Love finding Max's little #love πŸ’ŒπŸ“¬ notes around the house 🏑 for us all day πŸ˜πŸ’•. 

Just wait until you see the one chase had me write her back #siblingsπŸ‘«πŸ’• #SOMETIMEStheygetalong πŸ™ŠπŸ˜œ.

Monday, November 28, 2016

baby it's cold outside

I mean reeeeeealy πŸ˜‚πŸ˜­πŸŒ¨☃️❄️, who on earth is their mother??? πŸ˜³πŸ™ŠπŸ˜œπŸ™‹πŸΌ#raisingsnowloversonesnowstormatatime

15 cat week {black plague}

Still to this day my ALL TIME FAVORITE #comedy act on this planet is Jim Breuer's "why mother's need their rest"!!! GOOGLE IT, and laugh until you pee your pants πŸ˜‚πŸ˜­πŸ™ŠπŸ’¦‼️My #kids still wake us up all night long most nights {revolving door--can i get an amen from the mamas and the papas who can relate!?}, most days i wonder if they'll ever all #sleep πŸ˜΄πŸ’€ {everyone tells me eventually they do}, and i dream about this fantasy of everyone going to bed and staying asleep bahaha. I remember before Plexus feeling like i would never feel rested again. like i was#tired inside of my bones. my covers weighed a THOUSAND pounds every morning, and i would only get out of bed because i promised myself i would take a nap πŸ˜΄πŸ’€ #naptime #longlivethenap at 11am, which never happened. by the time 1pm rolled around, i would crawl myself to the couch after everyone was napping or watching a show, and try to sleep until i picked up carpool at 3pm, which never made me feel anymore rested {go figure}, and then by 9pm the processes began again. i was SO happy in doing this, and despite feeling like i was a 95 year old grandma πŸ˜†πŸ‘΅πŸ»and wanting to "kill some cats" 🐱😹most mornings {watch the video and you'll understand}, i had accepted that this was just part of the job. i'm so glad that i don't feel like that anymore, and guess what? there are no bonus points for being a tired mom. who knew!? do the kids sleep perfectly? nope! do i wake up feeling rested and have energy almost every single day? YES I DO πŸ™‹πŸΌ. is plexus for more than just tired mom? YEP ;), but today, i'm just giving a shout out to the mamas and the papas who are feeling like grandmas πŸ‘΅πŸ»and grandpas πŸ‘΄πŸ»because last night was a 3 CAT NIGHT😹😹😹 in our house {and last week was a 15 CAT WEEK πŸ˜·πŸ€’πŸ€•πŸ™ˆbahaha}, but i didn't have to kill any cats πŸš«πŸ±πŸ’•#PETAyourewelcome because PLEXUS pulled me through. BOOYA ;)

click here for the full video if you want to die laughing.
warning: you might pee your pants.

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Sunday, November 27, 2016

because a lot of the time they're just screaming and fighting.

Maxine was pouting in the corner because we don't know why, but the rest of the #gibsonhouseofchaoseventually sucked her into our #toystoryDREAMLAND πŸ€⛵️πŸš‚πŸšπŸ˜. Chase Ray's face though πŸ˜‚πŸ˜­πŸ‘πŸ» #thebabyman . Soaking in this little slice of #heaven tonight because a lot of the time they're just screaming and fighting, and I wonder if I'm doing this#motherhood thing right. 

This is pure #JOYπŸ™ŒπŸ»πŸ‘πŸ»πŸ’™right now, and I'm in #LOVE πŸ’•πŸ™πŸ»!

LIT.

When the prelit #ChristmasπŸŽ„ tree has half its lights out πŸ˜‚πŸ˜­, we improvise πŸ™ŒπŸ»✨😜 #iwannabedean πŸ‘ΆπŸ»πŸ’™