"experience is what you get when you didn't get what you wanted." -randy pausch

Saturday, May 30, 2009

muddy rims & mentionables

the scout's went 4-wheeling this morning.
me neither.
now, if we do it sean's way it will be to the car wash by the end of the day.
if we do it my way, we will let the elements wind, rain, and sleet get it off over a period of months and months.
i hope we do it my way:-)
it's much less effort.
other mentionables:
the small/petite swim diaper from last summer.
we started the day off with this past week.
the picture you saw on tuesday was round 2 of the swim diaper fiasco.
you can scroll down to tuesday's post and read about it there.
i couldn't help myself when i found this pic on my camera.
i'm sorry little loin, i'm sorry...
a swim date with beth and smith.
i love them.
it's much nicer to use swim diapers for swimming,
don't you think little pork loin?
is that an oxymoron?

good day my friends, good day.

"these is my words": part 2

"I wish the Lord would just knock me over with kindness and goodness and simple purity, because I don't seem to be getting the knack of it on my own."
(pg. 107)
My favorite quotes, thoughts, and lessons from the book:
1. "...Papa says that there Pheonix was hotter than the devil's frying pan." (pg. 2)
2. "...they was sure surprised when I took my rifle and Rose and went past the trees and brought back a deer for venison stew." (pg. 8)
does costco count?
3. "Before the first light is clear, we hear whooping that comes from the open gates of hell. It is much more terrible than my brothers a playing in the yard. We have our rifles ready and begin firing back as arrows rain in on us...I think I was screaming too but it is too awful a noise to know and I am lading along side Mama..." (pg. 11)
4. "My heart aches bad. I asked Papa couldn't we just turn back and go home. He set his hand on my arm and said, Girl, there's never any turning back in life." (pg. 12)
5. "We are low on food and he needs to go hunting..." (pg. 14)
i think i take the grocery store a bit for granted on most days. you?
6. "My face feels all pulled down and I declare I don't think I know how to smile no more. Mama is crying saying it is her fault for letting us go but it is not...Ernest raised himself up and told me I done a good thing and God surely knows it." (pg. 16)
when doing a good thing feels awful:-(
7. "Our axels don't match, but our wheels are turning." (pg. 24)
such is life, don't you think?
8. "Mama would say that the heart is what is important, but I think if I was shorter and filled out more and prettier I would like that just fine." (pg. 26)
the grass is always greener on the other side. AND how the popularity of certain features changes over time!
9. "The Meyers are camped too near us again and they are eating cold mush and sniffling the air as if their noses could eat it. Mrs. Meyers says out loud how she don't 'low no cooking or working on the Lord's Day and we just turn out backs. I guess we been through some hard times and all are pretty thin especially Ernest who looks like a stiff wind would send him to the Territories ahead of us all, and if the Lord is going to grudge us a quail for dinner well then that's that." (pg. 30)
hahahahaha, let this be a lesson to all of us on not being judgmental;-)
10. "Accustomed is what the scarlet velvet woman was. She was accustomed to her sorrows it said, as she had been accustomed to great riches and fine foods. We are accustomed to Indian wars and sorrows and traveling fast and folks dying." (pg. 35)
what am i accustomed to?
11. "I talked to those Mormon sisters...Now I know why people don't want the around as they are pure addled and claim they are all married to the same husband." (pg. 41)
oh, this is not good for our defense in not being polygamists is it....sigh.
12. "I am almost full grown now, and need to have more room in my blouses up top..." (pg. 41)
hahahaha, i laughed so hard reading this!
13. "I wish I had a gift for my family but I don't, so I went to everyone this morning and said Merry Christmas and hugged them and told them they are my Christmas present just being alive." (pg. 43)
i want this simplicity.
14. "This wagon is a treasure chest and I am suddenly struck greddier than ever in my life. I want it so bad I am just beside myself. All these words to read and know is more than my insides can stand and I am trembling all over with excitement." (pg. 44)
every reader's dream!
15. "Well, I don't know those things but I tried to tell him to just wash his face and hands and comb his hair, be an honest man and a good sport and kind hearted to her feelings, and if she doesn't like him he has got to go slow, and bring her flowers and such and tip his hat." (pg. 55)
so cute.
16. "The Army is back from Tombstone and today the soldiers are pulling away with the rest of the few wagons who will go on to Tucson and most of them except the Mormons want to stay there. Maybe those sisters will get tired of traveling and stay too, and find them each a husband but I will likely never know." (pg. 70)
haha, oh dear...
17. "Imagine having twenty-nine dollars to spend on a dress." (pg. 79)
how much do YOU spend on groceries per month???? i know i spend MORE than $29.
18. "He challenged some gambler, and although it was against the law to wear a gun in town (Tombstone), the man had a Colt in his belt..." (pg. 84)
have i mentioned that "Tombstone" is
MOVIE OF ALL TIME???? "i'm your huckleberry" "you ain't no daisy" "oh johnny, i forgot you were there, you may go now."
19. "Lord, tell me this is the last one I will ever have, and I will be forever grateful. If I had any idea, I would have never married as long as I lived...I never understood why a girl would choose to be an old maid, but now I do." (pg. 120 & 121)
20. "Every minute of my day and every last thing I do is tied to this little someone else. I am scared to death I will do something wrong, and she will die or grow up meager or sickly...how will I know how to teach her not to be selfish? And how will I teach her to be honest? And how will I know if she has a sickness when she is too little to say what hurts?" (pg. 121)
anyone else ever had these thoughts before? me too.
21. "Tell her I love her, will you? I began to let tears run down my face...But Jimmy said, No, you have to write her and tell her I love her, please...Write her? Tell Miss Ruthanne I loved her always, and he let out a long breath and died." (pg. 127)
good riddance jimmy. i hope you burns down there. curse you jimmy, curse you!
22. "April has become an artist. She got into the blueing bottle and finger painted the white pine floor...made little smears and lines and hand prints." (pg. 137)
it's too quiet in here, what is the toddler into???? i love how later on she talks about not washing it off b/c this may be the only child she has and she wants to remember the blue hand prints. so cute. so loving. when brennan does that to my floors i'll remember this:-)
23. "So I priced a few other things, and decided I would put my soap money in a jar and save up for myself some ladies' niceties that were never before considered as useful as white paint and new saddles had been." (pg. 142)
i LOVED how she said this, what a scream! hahahaha
24. "That man makes me feel like I have my bonnet on backwards." (pg. 148)
my favorite line of the entire book.
25. "But Savannah hugged me and said, Don't you change one little bit...I know Mama and her were crying for love, and for all their dear feelings for our families. They don't know I was crying b/c they are wrong, b/c I am not good like them, nor sweet tempered and loving. I was crying because I felt like they didn't see the real me inside, and if they had they wouldn't shed a single tear at all over me." (pg. 152)
sometimes i feel this way...i'm glad my thoughts are left to me and me only. sometimes i feel like a fraud, but other times i feel like i'm trying to improve and i'm just a work in progress and that can't be so bad.
26. "Also, there is now an ice factory in town and it was so wonderful to have a cold, cold drink in the warm afternoon." (pg. 178)
another thing i take for granted.
27. "Never, never, he said, pay for a man's dinner. Your contribution is simply being company." (pg. 179)
i love these gentlemanly things.
teach your daughters goddesses, teach your daughters;-)
28. "Every time I think I have been just as scared and horrified as a body can be, I ind there is new terror I am to become acquainted with. What is the use of that God?" (pg. 192)
now that my moles are not cancerous, what will i be afraid of next? how about just trying to not worry myself over things like that?! ok, good idea emily, good IDEA emily;-)
29. "It is funny how much more proud people can be of themselves if they never step back and take a good look in a glass." (pg. 226)
30. "Pretty soon Savannah's other baby started to cry, and she covered her chest with two babies and we fixed a shawl over her." (pg. 272)
it's the arizona territories 'HOOTER HIDER'! oh dearie me, twins, nursing twins!
31. Toobuddy being Charlie's walker as a baby (pg. 299)
32. "He said wisdom is not a path, it is a tree." (pg. 317)
33. "It is like some other part of me made up some rules about happiness and I just went along with them without thinking." (pg. 318)
that's how i feel about joining a sorority. yes, alpha gamma delta was the one.
i felt like i had to have those experiences to be happy, but then i realized it wasn't what i really wanted.
34. THEMES: courage, education, perseverance, love, romance, strength, hard work, honesty, Independence, trust, integrity, freedom, renewal.
35. "They will have to ask the star itself where it goes and why it is not content to stay." (pg. 384)
what were your favorite quotes, thoughts, and lessons?
tune in monday to see what the June/July selection will be!
let's just say, it's gonna be a GREAT summer:-)

Friday, May 29, 2009

"these is my words": part 1

it's that time of the month,
and i'm NOT talking about THAT;-)
i'm talking about,
emilisq's bloggin' bookies!!!
"The first thing I must do is become more religious. I will have to learn to be a 'righteous example of piety and purity, virtuous to a fault, kind and sharing,' if I am to be the Happy Bride in the book. 'Bible study is the first importance of being a wife.'...the book doesn't say what to do if you have slept in your underwear on top of a soldier in a wagon during a rainstorm."
(pg. 87) today will be questions for all of you,
tomorrow will be a more in depth discussion of what our favorite parts and thoughts were.
i've been ITCHING to hear what YOU'VE been thinking;-)
without further ADIEU, here's some questions for YOU!
1. How old was Sarah at the beginning of the book? at the end?
(i'm hoping someone has already done the math for us???)
2. What happened to Lockwood?
3. Would you have wanted Blue Horse delivering one of your babies?
4. What were your feelings towards Sarah's way of life?
5. Who was your favorite character? Why?
6. Which character did you most relate to?
7. Why did Sarah marry Jimmy?
8. What was the significance of Jack and Sarah exchanging time pieces for their wedding gifts to each other?
9. Sarah was in awe of Savannah. What person are you in awe of in your life? How has that shaped you as a person?
10. Sarah was a true heroine in this story in many ways. What is one heroic thing you have done in your life?
11.What themes did you see in the book?
12. What did you think about how the book ended?
"They will have to ask the star itself where it goes and why it is not content to stay." (pg. 384)
What meaning/symbolism did this line hold?
tune in tomorrow to hear some thoughts from the other goddesses and yours truly;-)
don't forget to go back and see what the other goddesses have written from the day before!
including some of my favorite lessons and quotes:-)
part 2 is on it's way AND i can't wait to hear more from you!!!

Wednesday, May 27, 2009

a wooden tractor from shop class

i made this tractor in my 6th grade shop class.
mr silva? was that his name???
"what's a matter for you?!"
that was his famous line.
he was rumored to LOVE the girls.
regardless, he had no grading system.
he looked at your work, turned it over in his hands a few times, picked out all of the flaws, and wrote a letter on the bottom in pencil.
i turned mine over this morning and found the letter "B."
my workmanship looks pretty good to me;-)
and to brennan for that matter...
making this tractor at 12 yrs old, i never imagined my little boy playing with it.
i do remember complaining about getting a B and not an A.
i'm sure i was very dramatic about the whole thing.
i'm so glad i have it now.
and wonder how being less dramatic about pitfalls could really enhance my life?
i'm sure i was all stressed out that day.
and now, look, so wonderful to see brennan push it around my floor.
nonetheless, here's to juicy drama.
and less stress.
and pushing tractor's around the floor.
didn't want to interfere with sunday activities on the last day of the month.
and if you have some juicy drama you want to share i'd be willing to listen;-) just sayin...
loves to you and yours,

avocado dip, for you CHOP CHOP!

recipe, as promised...
2 avocados, chop chop!
2 tomatoes (firm), chop chop! (i try to leave out most of the juices that come out from chopping)
bundle of cilantro, chop about 1/2
bundle of green onions, chop chop!
1 can black beans, rinsed
1 can shoepeg corn, drained (near the reg. corn in the store, it's smaller corn and whiter in color)
1 pkg italian dressing mix (make normally, like you're going to put it on a salad)
6 limes, squeezed
salt to taste (i like lots, but that's just me!)
*put it in a bowl all together and stir!
*i like to add the italian dressing, salt, and the limes last:-)
and of course, SERVE WITH CHIPS!
Good news!NO CANCER:-)the doc said it would have turned into cancer had we not caught it now.Moral of the story?GO TO YOUR MOLE DOC. More later,blood draw now.

Tuesday, May 26, 2009

izzy in our ears

i made ice cream.
the pork loin showed off his 6-pack.
i soaked my feet (see picture above).
we ate dip and chip.we grilled.
izzy played on the ipod in the background.
all the characters came out.
grandma's to spoil children.

and one messy loin.
there was dancing.

how lovely to be free.

the end.

swim diaper, not for swimming

my child is in a swim diaper this morning.
but we're not going swimming.
we ran out of diapers last night.
costco opens in 10 min.
we're leaving now.

Monday, May 25, 2009

don't call CPS


don't call CPS.

is it really bad for your eyes?

memorial day madness to come.

stay tuned.

Sunday, May 24, 2009


i love a new sponge.
it's a treat.
i wish it could last like this forever,
but then it wouldn't be so nice to open a new one.