"experience is what you get when you didn't get what you wanted." -randy pausch

Friday, January 7, 2011

exciting me.

i just threw out goodwilled 3 pairs of pants and 5 shirts.
just ok.
seeing as i only wear the same 5 shirts and 2 pairs of pants every week.
yet when i go to goodwill my closet of all of the stuff,
i can't seem to part with it.
i start from the back.
work my way forward.
oh, i like this one.
forgot i had this one.
that one's cute.
that one is exciting.
that one makes me look really cool.
that one doesn't make me feel very cute, but it looks exciting.
i'd be exciting if i wore this shirt!
i'm the cool mom in the store when i wear that one.
these are the thoughts going through my head as i sift through the masses.
that one's from high school.
those are good for summer.
those are for when i'm skinny.
wait, i am skinny, at least i think i am,
so that counts,
but i'm still not wearing those jeans i swear i'd wear when i was skinny.
same thing with that striped shirt.
that shirt might make a good maternity shirt.
yet i never wore it when i was pregnant.
both times.
but maybe next time?
i'd hate to get rid of it and want to wear it next time.
and then there's the pants.
those are from high school.
out of style,
but hot dog they're from high school.
and i never wear them,
but they're in there.
then there's the pants from before i was married.
the ones from when i was engaged.
the ones i wore for work.
the ones i got half off.
what a great deal.
can't get rid of them.
such a great deal.
but i never wear them.
is this what happens to you when you go through your closet?
so i guess 3 pairs of pants and 5 shirts is a success.
but why does it feel like i have nothing to wear when my favorite 5 are in the wash?
sandie told me you wear 20% of your clothes 80% of the time.
or something like that.
and then that you go out and buy more of the same stuff.
nothing different.
but if i hang onto the exciting stuff.
the stuff i'm emotionally attached to,
does it then make me more exciting?
more emotionally restricted?
i really just love a long sleeve shirt and jeans with uggs in the winter.
and a comfy lightweight shirt and shorts in the summer.
a rocker shirt here and there.
b/c then i'm cool,
you know;)
how much of what i wear is an emotional attachment to my childhood issues?
my college days?
what will i be thinking in my closet when i'm 40 about the clothes i'm wearing now?
probably the same as i'm thinking now.
i'm pretty sure i had these same thoughts at 15,
just less complex.
or more.
this is what i was thinking this morning as i sifted through each hanger in my closet.
and don't EVEN get me started on my shoes...
and i did get rid of the diesel ones.
even though i got them for a great deal.
wish i would have saved my $117.
when i was 19.
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Tuesday, January 4, 2011

breaking up is hard to do.

putting away christmas is like breaking up with a boyfriend.
you keep finding their stuff after you've given them the boot!