"experience is what you get when you didn't get what you wanted." -randy pausch

Saturday, August 15, 2009


a photo gallery.
from our home to yours.
half moon bay
(i could stay in the fog forever!)
all i need is my
flip flops
and my toes in the sand.
murphys, CA
(a day trip away from the lake)
soaking his bum in the creek...
gelato followed our toe dipping...
jamestown, CA
(an afternoon away from the lake)


thanks for a great trip, p-diddy and supreme goddess;-)

yearly tradition???

Wednesday, August 12, 2009


i'm sitting in the dark. my feet are cold from the ceiling fan. i'm wearing my favorite hoodie. i can't hear any boats or jet skis, and i think i may be the only one awake in the house. tucker dog included. i'm relaxed, well fed, and can't wait for my "pregnancy massage" tomorrow. oh, the glories of pregnancy;-) thank you supreme goddess sandie and silver fox, THANK YOOOOOU! i'm at the point in my vacation where the last day is tomorrow. no stress of packing just yet. one day to squeeze in everything that has been put off the entire trip. for example: the cheese sticks at the drive up marina. do you think they open before 11am??? i was never this hungry when i was pregnant with brennan, but DR. N assures me there is only 1 in there. it may have to do with the fact that the sight and smell of food with brennan was my nemesis. i remember thinking that i would NEVER, and i mean NEVER, like food again. i really believed it. well, i ate a chicken leg tonight, with the skin b/c it's my favorite part, and it was tasty. the only thing looming in my mind, other than my book that is calling to me, is the gloom and doom of actually doing the traveling it takes to get to the getting home part that feels so good. the uncertainty of airport delays and pork loin meltdowns. thank goodness the scout master will be with us. although, little P.L. was VERY well behaved on the way here. still, was it just luck? i've already made papa silver fox agree to a stop by IN-N-OUT on the way to the airport. and then i envision the moment where we step through our front door. the smells of home. the calm, dark room of a place that has missed our absence.
then, i feel pretty good about the getting home part that feels so good.

Monday, August 10, 2009

i knew

i spent three days packing to leave for our extended trip to california. the scout master had already departed for maple-something with his scouts in tow. i made lists. every time i thought of an item i would need i ran to the list. good thing too b/c the peed on incident was very distracting to my order of packing. the morning of our trip i crossed off every last item i had meticulously planned to bring. with 10 min. to spare i made the pork loin and i a peanut butter and jelly sandwich for the plane. it's our plane snack. no pb&j, no plane. i won't travel without one anymore. when i told the TSA agent i had peanut butter and jelly for the baby she told me i wasn't aloud to take peanut butter on the plane. i was confused. then i realized she thought i was taking an entire container. so my sandwich was packed, all of my liquids were in a quart sized bag, and brennan's monkey safely stowed in my backpack. yet i still couldn't shake the feeling that i was forgetting something....
turns out it was the cord to upload my pictures.
so sad.
this is when you stop reading my blog for a week.
see you soon.

Sunday, August 9, 2009

foggy paradise

dear scout master,
we have been soaking in fog since thursday evening and LOVING every moment. i don't ever want to leave this ocean air. it makes me feel so full of energy. paige, aris, and brooke stopped by for peaches, bananas, and perrier with lime. it was a delightful afternoon. brooke's little boy and brennan took over the backyard for a few hours. i think tucker may be wondering when we are going to leave his kingdom. the silver fox has been spoiling us rotten. the pork loin has taken over grandma and grandpa's kitchen with toys and such. i talked to gram yesterday. she asked for the list of items we wanted from the store for our arrival at the lake. OH how i love coming home! i told her bubbly things, fruit, and snack items for the pork loin. she assured me there was peanut butter and jelly. we visited the beach on friday. the one by the ritz. the pork loin chased seagulls and did not like the cold ocean water. it was very cold, but i found it refreshing. the goosebumps on my arms felt so good. he made some friends with children whose parents actually brought toys for them to play with at the beach (smart people). he also fed their dog, rosie. it was a BIG dog. the kind you want. with lots of hair. the kind i don't want. it was a lovely golden retriever and she and the pork loin took to each other immediately. it made me think that maybe a boy does need a big dog. you have not won this battle yet. i'm just saying, you may be in the process of getting a treaty. a treaty that involves more negotiations. we've had prawns, artichokes, LOTS OF TRES (i saved a burrito for you and will be bringing it to the airport), and sushi. the pork loin had four pieces of sushi. he also ate the ginger. the silver fox couldn't believe it. he still like the caterpillar one the best. specifically the avocado on top. in the mornings we have gone for walks, played in the park, and watched cartoons with tucker and the silver fox. jess and kels stayed the night on friday (adam had to leave after dinner) and they showered him with womanly love. the lady killer ate it up. the silver fox is walking brennan so i can have a few moments to myself. bless him. we are having a brunch lunch with the grandparents and aunt sue this morning. we picked up chowder, sourdough bread, and salad last night for it. i can't wait to taste the chowder and dip my bread in it. mmmmm, do we have to leave??? i can't WAIT to see you today. the bed has been so cold on your side. i finished my book last night. i'm going to write a review of it on the blog. i am hoping you got my text to bring a new book for me. i feel naked without something to read.