"experience is what you get when you didn't get what you wanted." -randy pausch

Tuesday, September 8, 2015

if i were a baby, i think that would be heaven.

{dean be like "you my food truck ma."}
last night was the first night that was cold in the house.
fall is coming!
i repeat: FALL IS COMING!!!
the burning bush plants off the back porch have started to change their leaves to red.
and the pumpkin leaves on the vine have started to dry out.
the days are getting shorter,
and my jeans are feeling less sweaty during the day.
the AC is turned off, so things get hot around bed time.
like we are all grouchy getting everyone into bed at night after showers,
and a little sweaty.
because he rises you know.
and that's where we get everyone ready for bed.
on the very top level of the west facing multi-tri house.
why we don't shower them in the basement this time of year is beyond my comprehension.
i guess we'd rather die from heat than carry the shampoo and conditioner down to the basement.
so when sean and i were brushing our teeth around 9pm,
feel really hot and agitated like i get in the heat you know,
he was all, "why don't i close all the windows and turn on the AC already?"
and i was all, "cause in a couple of hours we are all going to be freezing from the windows being open and it will be a waste!"
and also, i was picturing our power bill being below $100:)
so i was mostly focusing on that.
i can almost see it now...
so as we sweat our brains out at 9pm in our WEST FACING multi-tri house until october,
nobody wants more than underwear on to fall asleep.
including baby dean.
feel the burn.
i'll probably give in soon.
like tonight.
because i'm making enchiladas.
and ain't NOBODY can push through the september evening sun
in a west facing multi-tri house
with the oven on.
so anyway,
the AC's been off.
and baby dean's pajamas consist of a diaper and a onesie.
and around 4am that little man woke up for his middle of the night snack.
freezing cold.
and this is one of my most FAVORITE things that happens with a baby that nurses in the night.
it only happens once when the weather changes because you're not ready for it.
this is how utah weather is you see.
one day it's summer,
and then all of a sudden it's not.
and then sometimes it will be summer again,
and you'll change your clothes at lunch.
so anyway, last night it switched from summer to fall during the night,
and baby dean woke up with freezing legs and arms.
because he's broken out of his swaddle in the night.
in his onesie that he was sweating in at bedtime,
and the fan in the closet where he sleeps has made him colder than a 7-11 cooler.
it's a big closet, it's a dark closet, and he loves it,
don't be alarmed.
so sean brought me that freezing baby,
and the air in our room was so crisp and fresh from fall that is flirting with us outside.
and our bed was all warm and cozy.
it was SO cozy and warm.
so i pulled that baby into my warm sheets,
right up against my body.
like i brought my big ol' comforter right up and over his shoulders
and his little freezing body curled right up to mine,
and i could hear him sigh a little bit,
like, "have mercy, this is the best day of my life!"
this is what i think he was thinking.
and while i nursed him laying down in bed,
his little arms and legs slowly warmed up on my skin.
and i just think he's probably having the best time of his entire life.
warming up on his mom's skin,
drinking milk.
because if i were a baby,
i think that would be heaven.
and then when he was all done,
he of course barfed half of it up onto himself, sean, and the floor.
so sean changed his soaking wet onesie,
threw a burp cloth over the wet spot on the floor,
and then i had him get me a pair of little baby pants to put on him.
that little baby dean was looking up at me smiling and warm,
and i was just so happy to have this baby in my bed.
then i bundled him up in his blanket,
kissed him on his nose between his eyes,
laid him in his bassinet,
and added an extra blanket on top.
because being cold and freezing 
is only something i want to happen once 
on accident 
in the middle of the night.
oh happy day:)

1 comment:

Amy Involuntary said...

I love this weather! We haven't had our ac in for quite a while, and I even got to turn the heater on last week when it was 45 degrees outside, and only 58 in the house. It was glorious!
That sounds absolutely heavenly, for both you and little Dean! I love snuggling beneath a large warm comforter when the air all around is crisp and fall-y! And a sweet cuddling baby into that mix, and I am sure Nirvana will not be far behind!