and now it's too late to turn back.
i'm in it.
and it's been wonderful.
i'm just not sure it will still be wonderful in another 40 days.
the love affair you know you should run from,
but can only run toward.
and every night when i'm making dinner,
minus the last three nights that max has been watching barney on my computer,
i have it on.
making me feel warm.
i also must confess i just got a $21 bill from itunes.
all christmas music.
the andrews sisters
and justin bieber.
minus two songs i bought from last night's GLEE episode.
it's more than lovely.
which i listened to three times in a row when the kids were riding bikes today.
the two GLEE songs.
and i danced in my chair to it every time.
with possible arm movements and leg kicks.
scarf wrapped around my neck.
face in the sun.
big black puffy coat.
and three layers of clothes underneath.
it was SUPER COOL.
until it wasn't.
when my neighbor caught me.
which was fine.
b/c it was awesome.
dancing in my chair.
with my kids riding bikes.
and bringing me flowers to put in my hair.
sometimes dead leaves too.
and the smell of snow in the air.
you better watch out,
you better not cry,
you better not pout,
i'm telling you why,
santa clause is coming to town!