monday's holding hands with friday

please note:

farmer's tan

butt crack

sunglasses in the grass

me worrying about getting a sunburn

and max saying we should hold hands.

then she kissed my shoulder.

and jumped back in the pool.

7 minutes in heaven.

who knew it was monday anyway?

the summer days just all blend into each other.

kind of like monday is holding hands with friday.

or wait, was it wednesday?

oh summer love.

yessssssss:)

just to be safe

teaching her the art which i love.

also, i didn't want the blueberries to go bad in the fridge.

she is my shadow.

and my best kitchen helper.

sometimes i would just rather cook alone,

in fact, most of the time i prefer it.

but this day was the best.

chase was napping, and brennan was at camp.

and max and i just settled into our afternoon in the kitchen.

and i knew it was going to be one of those days we would both remember forever.

the blueberry muffin day.

just me and my Goldilocks.

the first time we forgot the sugar.

at least,

it tasted like we forgot the sugar.

but maybe we didn't forget the sugar.

maybe it just didn't have enough.

so just to be safe, 

we made them again the next day,

and added a heaping 1/4 cup of sugar.

like i said,

just to be safe;)

oh boy OH BOY oh boy,

we couldn't keep our paws off of them.

...

 {note: added 1/4 cup sugar instead of 4 tabls}

...

breakfast anyone?!

sleeping beauty {with a bite}

{max at about 4 weeks old}

{max at 6 weeks old}

...

tonight i laid in max's toddler bed as her eyes drifted off to dreamland.

brennan was higher than a kite in the bed next to us.

i kept rolling over to give him a snap here and a "look" there.

finally i threatened to take away his blanket.

that worked for about 2 seconds.

i sang all of my favorite songs as i held her hand and watched her eyelids get heavier and heavier.

i usually lay with brennan,

but tonight he told me to leave halfway through baby beluga.

that's when i know he wants to be naughty and not go to sleep.

with the freedom to bounce his legs around and sit up fifty times in his bed.

even though i only ever move 2 feet away and over into max's bed,

he feels like he has that much more freedom to not go to sleep.

earlier today he asked me why i still had boobs, while i was on the phone with sandie.

and i was all, "b/c girls have boobs."

and then {pointing to my boobs} he was all, "but they don't have milk anymore."

and i was like, "girls still have boobs even without milk."

and he goes, "oh....boys don't have boobs. 

except for wrestlers. those guys have boobs."

we had a good laugh over that one.

oh the mind of how a 5 year old works out the world.

so i laid there staring at the most beautiful angel which is max tonight,

with stars glowing green and purple across the ceiling and walls of brennan and max's room,

and there beside me was this creature,

with the most perfect nose, 

and the most gorgeous long eyelashes 

that i have ever seen in my entire life.

i remember thinking that from the first day she was placed into my arms.

and i couldn't help but picture her as a brand new baby,

laying there in her toddler bed tonight.

i ran my index finger down the slope of her nose,

over and over and over again.

i kissed the side of her head,

right beside her closed eyes,

about a million times.

and i tried to pretend that she was only 3 weeks old again.

i put my fingers into her little 3 year old hand,

and she took a few short studdered breaths.

the kind you take when you are just barely drifting off into dreamland.

and then she let out one big long peaceful sigh and rolled onto her side,

and we were all of a sudden laying there face to face.

and she was fast asleep.

so close that our noses were almost touching.

i could smell her perfect little miss max state,

and i decided that tonight,

i would lay with her a little bit longer.

wishing that i could scoop her up and onto my shoulder,

b/c the last time i blinked she was laying just like that,

only she was a newborn again

laying on my pillow, 

cuddled up to my face.

swaddled in her little pink blanket.

and we were snoozing away the last few early hours of the morning together.

she still takes my breath away.

every

single

time.

and right then and there i prayed that she would always feel this loved for her entire life.

and then i got up to kiss brennan,

and run my fingers through his super awesome thick brown hair.

i love the calm that comes with night.

...

{max bit brennan today. 

for the second day in a row. 

except today was different...poor chap.

maybe NOW he will learn to listen to her when she wants him to back off.

b/c i'm sure this was a bite he will never forget...LOL.

it's unmentionable.

we'll leave it at that.

yesterday there was an incident with needle nosed pliers that she initiated.

let's just say she was Abraham and brennan was Issac.

is it normal for siblings to strip the flesh off of each other on a DAILY basis?

literally?

HAVE MERCY.}

aloha {goodbye}

my mom leaves tomorrow.

back home to hawaii.

we are all sad.

wah!!!

glad you're here

welcome summer.

we're glad you're here:-)