playing at my feet.

normally i try to take things off of my key chain.
in high school i had a ridiculously full key chain.
it weighed more than my backpack.
for some reason i saw it as "the bigger, the better."
a colage of my identity.
now i want my car key, my house key, my mom's house key, and that's it.
but
instead of taking something off today, i put something on.
it is a glorious invention.
i didn't spend one useless minute searching for my keys in the depths of my bag.
there they were, hooked to the outside!
they unhook and hook quite easily.
i am a happy woman.
...
i have about thirty pages left in
"the secret life of bees"
one week goddesses, so get crack-a-lackin!
that means you bree;-)
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pork loin roast was on sale today.
i bought some.
brennan pointed to it. (pictures to come)
i made the stuffed pork chops.
you know, the ones with spinach and feta from last week?
to die for.
have you made them yet?
click here.
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have you read nie's post today?
it made me think.
would i be okay if my life changed instantly?
no.
would anyone?
eventually i'd be okay.
is it wrong to let motherhood be such a big part of me?
i've let it in.
and i love it.
every part of it.
even the hard parts.
the yucky parts.
definitely the exhausting parts.
but i just love the way it feels.
to raise someone.
to show them a giraffe for the first time.
to watch them call a giraffe a "dog."
proud moment! lol
i still have other parts of me.
i love my spiritual life.
which was increased by the mothering part of my life.
who am i fooling?
every part of my life was increased by the mothering part of my life.
i mean that in an amazing way.
i've been changed for the better.
now that i have more of a grasp on life as a mother i've been able to incorporate brennan into all of the things i loved before becoming a mother.
brennan eats mint chips when i bake cookies.
he jogs with me.
bless you costco and your $99 jogging stroller.
he listens to music with me.
ella fitzgerald, i think you rock.
britney spears, brennan loves your music.
i read out loud to brennan.
he listens, i think.
he turns the pages too.
it's darling.
i read silently while he plays sometimes too.
not for very long,
maybe 10 minutes, okay, only 5.
but it's a beautiful 5 minutes.
we never make it longer than 5 minutes,
reading in my rocker (do i sound old?)
with brennan at my feet playing.
it's magical.