if you have not read about gracie yet, now is the time.
you'll need the entire box of tissues though.
my heart was broken, mended back together, and broken several times.
and i'm not even all the way down the page.
i was just complaining to my friends at book club tonight how challenging/exhausting my day had been.
i believe i said, "he's wanting me to carry and hold him all day."
i take it back.
i'm trying to decide if i want to go into his room right now
just hold him.
we were at primary children's hospital during this family's trial.
they even talked about possibly being able to move gracie to the 3rd floor.
we were on the 3rd floor.
the day we left the hospital was the day gracie returned to heaven.
this touches my heart.
gracie was born a few weeks after brennan.
and passed away two days before his 1st birthday.
i'm so grateful for my healthy baby boy.
part of me feels guilty for his health.
can anyone else understand this?
i love you brennan.