"experience is what you get when you didn't get what you wanted." -randy pausch

Thursday, March 12, 2009

letters to the goddesses

dear blogging goddesses,
i am grateful tonight.
my heart is overflowing with it.
read my previous post tonight for extra information on my overflowing cup.
i've felt powerful this past week.
utterly exhausted, and overwhelmingly powerful.
as a mother.
a wife.
a friend.
an individual.
you may not agree, but god gave this to me.
like i said, grateful, i am.
i have this friend, fiauna.
she blogs.
her daughter is autistic.
anyone else afraid of that word?
me too.
so i asked her a question.

Q. (asked by me)
Fiauna, what do you think about autism and vaccines?

A. (answered by fiauna)
I feel that every parent needs to follow their gut when dealing with the needs of their children. While I have only read of one case of a child suffering adverse affects from vaccines that caused her mental retardation, among other things, I feel vaccines should be researched by parents before given to their children. I vaccinated my children blindly. The doctor said, "Do it," and I did. If I had researched the vaccines my daughter was given, I would now be more confident that they hadn't been the cause of my daughter's condition. In my gut, I don't think vaccines caused my daughter's condition. And I don't think there is anything I can do to "cure" her. Vaccines are a good thing. I personally don't think that vaccines cause autism. There might be a link between vaccines and autism, but from the research I've read, the child would already have the predisposition for autism, the vaccine just "turns it on". And if not for the vaccines, it would have been something else down the line.

But here is what I really think. I think that these children with autism and other various neurological conditions are choice spirits of Heavenly Father. I think they chose to come to earth like this. I feel that my home is a better place because we have a choice spirit living here. That doesn't mean that I don't cry myself to sleep at night, wondering what I did wrong. It just means that when the sunrises, I am grateful for the experience of raising my sweet angel.Thanks for letting me post this comment here. Maybe I'll write a blog post about it.

she wrote this post today.
she's amazing, isn't she?
i know.
i think so too.

loves to you and yours,


Fiauna said...

I am blushing. You have filled my cup tonight. Thank you so much!

Natalie said...

Amazing and powerful. Thank you again for sharing!

Sue said...

Thanks for introducing me to such beautiful blogs and bloggers. I have really enjoyed reading their stories/thoughts.

And by the way, you've become quite an accomplished blogger yourself!